— Aquarius (zodiacsociety)
alright now i used to hate pitbull because it seemed like the right thing to do but you know what i never hear him doing fucked up shit. as far as i know he is really just out there living life ,enjoying himself, visiting walmarts, and spreading the cubano party into the hearts of everyone around the world, he is mr. world wide and hes having a blast and i respect and love that pitbull. pitbull if youre reading this thank you and im sorry
Counseling services are hit or miss in my experience. I went the first time, and it was amazing. I was finally able to let go of things I had been holding on to for years. The second time I went, I honestly told my counselor I had thought about suicide. She did nothing. I ended up trying.
But yet the counseling center here has NO NEED for more training with suicide. EVERYONE is GOLDEN. Everyone knows what they are doing.
This pisses me off because I brought this up the FIRST FUCKING WEEK I started. About how I would like to do some training or some role playing with the counselors to see where their skills were at, and I was completely shot down because the counseling center was APA accredited, and they have got this beyond handled and blah blah blah.
Well. You missed one. You missed one student who was HONEST. How many have you missed that haven’t been honest? THIS STUDENT COULD HAVE DIED!
I told them, “I’ve sat in trainings with licensed clinicians, and suicide is scary for them to talk about, and so knowing that sometimes clinicians can be scared, I’d like to do some work with them.”
And the response was “oh, other training institutes may not train their clinicians in suicide and risk assessment, but we are accredited and so we do it well. We don’t need that.”
I was unfortunately correct. Which is not, unfortunately, surprising.
SUICIDE IS FUCKING SCARY TO TALK ABOUT! People will ask me about it, and I’ll talk about it like it’s not scary because I talk about it all the time, and it’s not a scary topic for me, but when I look around at other people in the room, I can see that the conversation is uncomfortable for them. Therapists aren’t immune to that.
I talk about suicide all the time, and I STILL, STILL, STILL feel scared when I have to ask someone I know about suicide. I’ve got so much knowledge and I still am nervous about continuing the conversation after that ‘yes’ because it is really really hard to sit in that dark space with someone and to find the words. When I know, I KNOW, there aren’t any right words. It is scary when someone wants to die. That is the truth. It is scary and heartbreaking and sad and confusing and tense and it is always one of the hardest conversations to have.
So what, are therapists just completely immune to that fear? NO. NO THEY AREN’T and some just avoid talking about suicide altogether because it is uncomfortable and because NOBODY taught them that once a client brings up suicide and is considering suicide, the topic shifts to suicide. Suicide is what you talk about now. It’s time to do that risk assessment. And when the client starts talking about something else, you have to gently bring them back to suicide. Because yeah, the other stuff is important, but the suicide thing, that’s literally life or death. And you’ve got to figure that out.
This just. Fuck. FUCK. What am I supposed to fucking DO with this school?!?!
— Tracey Mitchell (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
- K: I'm proud of myself! My bean dip actually turned out pretty good, I think.
- Me: Oh cool! I'll try it! Although if I don't like it, I'll tell you that I don't like it.
- K: Oh I know you will.
- M: oh we have no doubts that you will say exactly what you think about it. But that's okay, because I like that about you. You tell it how it is.